Is there a name for this feeling when you can't get someone out of your mind, but it is not love?
This feeling when walking down the street you suddenly got hit by the memories. Memories that you were sure are buried deep underground like scorpions do.
But they weren't. They sailed to the surface. They came back for a purpose. But what's the purpose? Maybe to remind me that I'm strong enough to deal with this for as hard as it is, as I could deal with our separation.
I can. You as well! This and more. And every one of the memories means something. It is up to you, how are you going to interpret it. I choose to see the light in all this darkness. Although I have to walk double for it. There, at the end of the darkness, is me. Now stronger than ever. A strength that you gave me. The new me that you did not wait to see. To meet. But the right one will. Thank you for relinquishing the throne to him!
On the other side of the darkness is everything I dreamt of. Everything I imagined. Everything I begged for. The road is long, but I know it is worth it. Only the brave get there. And no battle is easy, but the victory, isn't it sweet? Isn't it amazing when in the end you will realize you succeed even tho you've been through hell?
Those thoughts of success are the engine of my body. When I'm about to quit, the autopilot goes on and my body starts fighting. Keeps moving towards the goal, even though unconsciously. Almost sleepwalking.
And at this point, I'm glad I'm stubborn. Because if I wasn't, where would I be now? With the first thought of you, I would give up and fall into an impasse. And that dear is none of my plans. I choose to be successful, independent, strong, and the best! The best version of myself, and better each day.
And I will think of you again. And I will get disappointed again. I will lose control again. And I will smile and thank you. For the person, you converted me into. Sincerely, from the heart, thank you!
Disclaimer:
The stories are seasoned with a lot of drama, and the characters are fictional because the drama starts when logic ends. ☺
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